I Didn't Ask......



The moment I got into my car this morning, my mind drifted away back to the times when everything was colourful and cheerful. Various images played in front of me...happy moments, unforgettable gestures, loving gazes, etc appeared as if playing a movie in my eyes.....

My heart was beating fast and I knew I was not concentrating on my driving because I just couldn't focus. My chest felt tight and heavy and tears threatened to fall down. Crying was my best friend nowadays, that's the only source of escape which I knew would make me feel better for a while.

Upon reaching the office, I had to literally drag my feet and body to climb up the stairs and unlock my room. I had nice big glass window panels in my room and the view was quite breathtaking, I could see greens and people rushing to get to work on time. I just stood there looking outside silently and wishing that things would be back to normal soon. It has got to be just like how it was before. I tried my best to put aside my ego and hard-headed being so that the most important thing in my life would be back to normal if not better.....

I prayed so hard that my heart burst and my eyes swell. I was determined to do whatever I could to be happy again and put on that famous smile of mine back to where it belongs...

I didn't ask for too much..and I didn't even ask for an understanding....
I didn't ask for a change..and I didn't even ask for a quit from whatever that has been going....
All I asked for was a little bit of time.....

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